I should be studying?

wanted to update you. I found my necklace. all is not lost.

also DL "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz. something about it is just FAB.

love from the lib.

sometimes, learning is fun

this New Testament class I am in right now is, well, hard - but kind of amazing. sometimes I'm a little baffled that this is the stuff I am getting credit to learn, since it seems like stuff I should be learning anyway. its a little bit like a really really intense Bible study with a really freaking smart leader. I came back across this in studying for my midterm (which was hard. if you wondered.) and wanted to share it, because its pretty good news. Paul was a pretty sweet guy.

"...We do not preach ourselves, but Jesus Christ as Lord, and ourselves as your servants for Jesus' sake. For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness,"made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus' sake, so that his life may be revealed in our mortal body. So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.
...
Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal."
2 Corinthians 4

sometimes even in texts we may have read millions of times, new and beautiful truths reveal themselves and bring us encouragement! so while I might feel hard pressed on every side, struck down, perplexed, persecuted - Paul reminds me (and the church in Corinth) that I am not crushed, not in despair, not abandoned, not destroyed - because of the truth of the death of Christ.
lately, I've been forgetting that, and having a pretty big pity party for my "suffering"... but today I am reminded of the truth.
and it's a pretty good day.

tear your curtains down, for sunlight is like gold

hiiiii everybodyyyy
things that make me not want to study: beautiful weather
things that are currently ruining my life: midterms
so that's that.
not much going on here in sunny, fabulous Denver... I am in full swing of midterms, which is, at this moment, ruining my life. dramatic? I think no. I would say I am looking forward to spring break, which is looming so closely in the future, but even then I'm fairly certain I'll be working on a take-home midterm and a paper. gross. I am, however, pretty darn excited about heading back to Wichita for a while for Easter and SB... really can't wait for that. I've been getting all kinds of nostalgic lately and missing my family. namely I look at new pictures of timmy and shelbs and it takes everything in me not to get in my car and drive there! soon!
I went to the Spurs/Nuggets game on Friday night! oh so sadly, my Spurs LOST - but never you fear, they beat the Nuggets tonight by 4. HA! for those of you (cough, TIM, cough) who say to me that now that I live in Denver I need to be a Nuggets fan - I say this - I will probably always love the Spurs. fact. I will root for the Nuggets... but only when they are not playing the Spurs. ok? ok.
I am newly obsessed with the movie "Once" - the modern day musical! I watched it with Allison and Sarah on Sat. night and I LOVE it. I bought the soundtrack (the music is incredible - specifically I love "Gold" and "Falling Slowly") and have been listening to it constantly. love. beautiful movie. watch it!

other things you might need to know:
new favorite thing Timmy has ever said: Wabioli (translation: Ravioli; context: "I had wabioli for dinner. do you yike wabioli? do you have wabioli at your house? you do? mommy, she has wabioli at her house too!")
other recent thing ruining my life: I pulled my hamstring (skiing, I think, SHOCKING) and am limited now to working out on the BIKE, which I hate. lame.
new ways in which I impress men: by changing the channel on the TV at the Y to ESPN (to watch the Spurs game)
new fave song pretty much: Low by Flo Rida featuring T-Pain. what.
new hobby: critiquing thomas' facebook profile and making him change things I don't like.
new favorite way to waste my life: www.etsy.com. Karli, (Bodie's mom) gave me the website. I emailed her the next day saying this: "now that you have given me this website, you're going to have to start paying me more so that I can afford both groceries AND handcrafted accessories!" she responded: "maybe I can start paying you IN handcrafted accessories. you'd be hungry and homeless but you'd sure look cute on the street!" love it.
other other thing that is ruining my life: I currently can't find my favorite necklace! Bodie ripped it off me the other day and although I fixed it, I fear it may have fallen off! say your prayers for my necklace. please. I beg of you.
new grossest thing ever: last week, I'm pretty sure I went 4 days without washing my hair. I got this cute hat recently that covers the hair just perfectly when the last thing you want to do is, well, your hair. don't judge me.

thats all I can think of. hope you enjoyed this little glimpse into my life.

ps. Lori - I know you will read this and then probably send me another email telling me you want to know more things, and this is my public way of telling you that I adore you, love you, have not forgotten who you are, my fingers are not broken, and I will in fact call you sometime soon. a blog shout out for a blog stalker is supposed to be a pretty big deal I think... I hope you enjoy it!

another sunny day

in honor of the most beautiful Saturday... and so I don't freak out about the snow that appeared the next day. is it Spring yet?

i thank You God for most this amazing
day:for the leaping greenly spirits of trees
and a blue true dream of sky;and for everything
which is natural which is infinite which is yes

(i who have died am alive again today,
and this is the sun's birthday;this is the birth
day of life and love and wings:and of the gay
great happening illimitably earth)

how should tasting touching hearing seeing
breathing any-lifted from the no
of all nothing-human merely being
doubt unimaginably You?

(now the ears of my ears awake and
now the eyes of my eyes are opened)
- ee cummings

all the dogs that bark from the fences and everything is wanting for you

today it was 70 degrees and amazing. I love Colorado.

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view these photos for proof of my fabulous social life!

and these because they're ahhhhhdorable.

you got me trippin', stumblin', flippin', fumblin'

hello beautiful people!
here we are on this beautiful (and I do mean gorgeous - high of 60 and sunny - AMAZING) leap year day! how exciting! I don't have all that much to report, really, but since I am overdue for an update I'll see what I can do in the way of a review of whats new and exciting in my glamorous life.
I recently learned (thanks to Nick Arojo on TLC's What Not to Wear), after something like 10 years with curly hair, HOW TO DO my curly hair and not to look like a lion. this information is essentially rocking my world.
Kelly came to visit, she ROCKED her interview with Regis for PT school, and GOT IN! so basically, she will more than likely move here, to Denver, in August. SO FUN and fun and fun. YAY!
hmm. Last night tried out this champagne bar downtown for Beckie's birthday called Corridor 44 in Larimer Square, and it was so fab. I felt pretty glam, gotta be honest.
TONIGHT - I am beyond excited, because I am going to The Toad Tavern. let me explain. the Toad Tavern is this little bar across the street from my friend Lacey's apartment, and I have been talking about wanting to go there since the beginning of the semester (because, I mean, its called TOAD TAVERN - the Triple T) and my friend Rob Drabkin (see: myspace.com/robbrocks) is headlining there tonight!!!! when I saw the flier for the first time, I nearly wept with joy. so that is tonight. fun live music and my favorite place I've never been to. this is a pretty big weekend for me I think!

I can't think of all that much more to say at this time - wish me luck at the Toad tonight and I hope you all have fab weekends as well!

loooooooooooveeeeeeeeeeeeee

cause everybody's heard our lovely stories

things to notice: new haircut. new headband. my lovely friends, allison (right - she is crippled at the moment from a snowboarding accident) and beckie (left). nothing else fun to report really - except that KELLY is coming to visit in THREE glorious days! hooray! until next time,
see: Martian Child with the Cusacks (John and Joan, both of whom I LOVE)
download: Heysatan by Sigur Ros for a lovely study/nightime song... it is some Icelandic band and I'm pretty sure its not English or any other known language, but somehow, it works. as well as: Losing Keys by Jack Johnson (the whole new CD is pretty good!)

biiiiiig hearts.
also I straight up copied Elaine and re-did my whole blog layout. SOOOO lainey, thanks for the idea! and the great time-passer this afternoon!

in recognition of "singles awareness day"

SO. having spent valentines day with my lovely friends, partaking in chocolate and adult beverages, watching movies and talking about... stuff. needless to say, it was a pretty good night. I spent the actual day getting my haircut and colored (at the Aveda Academy from a student for DIRT CHEAP! glorious!) then shopping and stuff with Chelsea. but, in honor of the day of love, I post this poem by ee cummings about, well, love. I do not typically call myself some kind of sap, but this is pretty truly a beautiful portrayal of... ahh I can't say anything else without wanting to die. ENJOY!

i love you much(most beautiful darling)

more than anyone on the earth and i
like you better than everything in the sky

-sunlight and singing welcome your coming

although winter may be everywhere
with such a silence and such a darkness
noone can quite begin to guess

(except my life)the true time of year-

and if what calls itself a world should have
the luck to hear such singing(or glimpse such
sunlight as will leap higher than high
through gayer than gayest someone's heart at your each

nearness)everyone certainly would(my
most beautiful darling)believe in nothing but love

derek webb is a baller

taken from "Lover" by Derek Webb

I’ve always been a lover from before I drew a breath
Some things I loved easy and some I loved to death
Because love’s no politician, it listens carefully
Of those who come I can’t lose one, so you will be set free

But go on and take my picture, go on and make me up
I’ll still be your defender, you’ll be my missing son
And I’ll send out an army just to bring you back to me
Because regardless of your brother’s lies you will be set free

I am my beloveds and my beloved’s mine
So you bring all your history and I’ll bring the bread and wine
And we’ll have us a party where all the drinks are on me
Then as surely as the rising sun you will be set free

Derek Webb = genius lyricist WHO I was lucky enough to see in concert last night with Caedmon's Call. just think... of those who come He can't lose one! and we will be set free. Then my very favorite lyric of all DWebb lyrics... we bring Christ our history, all of the crap in our past that sucks and is ugly and broken, and He takes it for us - there is no catch. as surely as the rising sun... YOU will be set free. which for me is a really beautiful truth.

It's a beautiful Sunday and today I'm just pretty thankful for all that is so good in my life. mostly, from the concert last night (Derek Webb and Caedmon's Call) and church this morning, I'm just reminded of how lovely it is to be a part of a community of believers, of brothers and sisters in Christ... and to have such an amazing gift of life and mercy and grace from a Savior who values us and draws us close, just as we are, with all of our ugliness and selfishness and sin, to Himself.

glorious.

skiing, take two: reality sets in

I have yet to stop laughing from yesterday's events on the slopes. I went skiing for a second time with three of my favorite people, expecting (for whatever reason) to have a glorious, perfect, skillful, day of skiing. but alas, this was not to be. and for us 4, who after yesterday we agreed to be akin to a group of special needs kids allowed out without adult supervision, the day was anything but uneventful. allow me to, without naming names, tell you a little about our day.

having gone down one green (beginner) run, I (along with my trusty friends) decided that I was surely ready to take on a blue (intermediate) run. clearly. mind you, on the green run, we also ended up going too far and ended up back in the parking lot where our car was, and had to ride the gondola back up to where the lifts are. off to a good start, I think!
we make it back up, find a blue run, and I am presented with the steepest hill of snow I have ever seen, and I begin to panic. After a pep-talk from my skiing buddy for the day (who shall remain nameless - the other two left us for snowboarding together), I snowplowed through the hill, and didn't even fall! wonderful. on this run, I began a pretty steady stream of falls that were pretty fun - one had me sliding pretty far down the mountain on my back, head first, one ski parallel to the rest of my body up in the air. we decide we have time for one more blue before meeting the boarders for lunch, and we head down Claimjumper to the base of peak 8. little did I know how this was about to go...
so it basically went like this: I would go ahead of my friend in case I fell, I would get going (too fast), lose the ability to stop, and end up eating it (or making myself eat it at the alternative of running into a tree) almost every time. apparently, according my friend who was behind me, she could always tell when I'd lost control, and it was pretty funny to observe, not to mention the massive wipe-outs I was taking. needless to say, my friend laughed so hard at me that she, well, peed her pants. which made for a cold remainder of the day for her... and a hilarious laugh for the rest of us.
my other darling friend, unfortunately, broke her ankle. SADDD. we were a pretty sorry bunch by the end of the day. today, I feel as though I essentially was beaten with a baseball bat yesterday... I am a little sore, normally, but I am also quite banged up from the intensity of all my wipe outs. lovely.

so, in retrospect, I realize that I need to stick with the greens until I well, know how to ski. HA. good call.

with love from a sore, battered megan,
and happy superbowl. go Giants.

song of the day: Benny and the Jets - Elton John

I've got soul but I'm not a soulja

another cummings poem for your appreciation:

it is at moments after i have dreamed
of the rare entertainment of your eyes,
when (being fool to fancy) i have deemed

with your peculiar mouth my heart made wise;
at moments when the glassy darkness holds

the genuine apparition of your smile
(it was through tears always)and silence moulds
such strangeness as was mine a little while;

moments when my once more illustrious arms
are filled with fascination, when my breast
wears the intolerant brightness of your charms:

one pierced moment whiter than the rest

-turning from the tremendous lie of sleep
i watch the roses of the day grow deep.


"one pierced moment whiter than the rest"
beautiful.

I don't know why I know these things, but I do

well hey there lovelies!
Thomas, as per usual, brought it to my attention that I have not said anything in a while. well, Thomas, thats because I've been out having a life. I suggest you try it.
haha - I kiiid. I have, however, been a pretty busy lady these past weeks. since skiing, I have been a social butterfly with all my Denver friends - who I am loving more and more with each passing day - and I also went to SAN ANTONIO! let me tell you - a glorious reunion was had by all. or something. long weekend debriefed briefly (haha) is as follows:
arrived in SA, Lori picked me up. stayed with Kara and Madison at their cute little house, and Ali and Ellen were there to celebrate me, clearly. in the morning we picked up Kristin from the airport, and we obsessed over eachother for a while, then headed to Trinity, to see every little Sigma that ever there was, with special appearances by Jessica Mattsson, Jason and Malia and a HUGE 2 year old Zeke (!), among other thrilling and exciting individuals. Blah blah blah, Clint came on Saturday (after our day of eating at Twin Sisters and visiting Papa Dean's Popcorn) and we all went to Pat O'Briens for some debauchery and fun (haha - which is relative to all of our old-ness that apparently sets in once you graduate from college, weird.) Sunday I was at FPC - saw my high school kiddos along with lots of others... you get the idea. it was a crazy, whirl-wind few days, but such a blessing to be back with my besties, to cuddle with Sandy, to talk with Lori when we should be sleeping, to laugh and be amazing with Kristin, etc. etc. so so good and so so needed. the end.

since then I have actually been legitimately kind of cool - went on a day excursion to the Denver Art Museum which I am obsessed with, now. Learned this from one of the more contemporary exhibits, an artist who utilized, well, stripes: "A stripe is just as real as a g*dd**n flower." - Gene Davis. Thank you, contemporary art.

since then, game night, ice skating and outlet shopping in Dillon, CO, and lots of fun conversations, some really REALLy late nights, and other fun things.
AND - found a church I'm going to stick with. Denver Community Church. love it.

ok thats all - some pictures because I feel like these are boring without them, then I'm off. LOVE LOVE!

listen to: He Said She Said - Ashley Tisdale. best workout song EVER.
read: Water for Elephants. I LOVED it.

HAHA - oh yeah, minor thing, I started school today. having been to two classes, I know that I am obsessed with my Old Testament class (seriously) and professor, and pretty much hate my Groups in Counseling class. Ideal.

peace out -

a glorious attempt at couple's skating with Allison:

with some of my best friends of the world in San Antonio

sexy faces with Ali and Kara - note: Kara is not, in fact, flipping off the camera. although it really looks like she is.

with my skating date, Allison!

official initiation into legit coloradoism: skiing

It is true: and official: I SKIIED!
my friend melanie and I decided, one fateful thursday, that we should ski. first available day? saturday. and there it was.
we drove to Keystone at 7am on Saturday, excited and secretly fearful for our lives/limbs. it took us 3 hours to drive the 1.5 hour drive due to ski traffic (I-70 goes to Keystone, Breck and Vail... among other mountains) and upon arrival/viewing lifts/seeing skiiers seemingly plummeting to their deaths, we began to panic. we spent about 30 minutes trying to put on our ski boots at the car, which we decided was probably not boding very well for our day on the slopes!
we walked to the ski school, and were informed that a class was leaving right then - so with no time to freak over the imminent danger and massive charge to our credit cards, we grabbed our stuff and headed out with Derald (yes, Derald) our instructor, and 2 other first-time girls. cue heart pounding panic attack.
the rest of the day went in a direction I never could have predicted. first of all, I am a pretty good skiier. like, seriously. I know its shocking - no one was more shocked than I was - but it was SO SO SO FUN. I only fell once all day - Derald was so proud of me. AND, apparently, my deathly fear of heights has subsided, as being on the lift, dangling in mid air, had zero affect on me. it was actually kind of fun, not to mention BEAUTIFUL. who can believe that I live in a place where such amazing beauty and splendor is only a couple of hours to the west?

I was going to go again today, actually, but when we woke up this morning and checked the weather, it was -14 in Breckenridge with a high of 2. HAHA. no thank you.

so, to all the nonbelievers who (admit it) thought I would live here and never ski, you are wrong. and something I thought I would hate, I loved! how lovely. I couldn't be more pleased.

please enjoy below evidence: mel and I all decked out in our not-so-flattering ski gear (I'm pretty sure ski pants add 30 pounds, no lie), and me on the lift (because I was pretty sure if I didn't document it, my mom would think I was a liar. seriously.)

love!

I think that possibly, maybe, I'm falling for you

........



I get paid to play with this baby. glorious.

if I was a flower growing wild and free, all I'd want is you to be my sweet honey bee

I don't know what part of me thought "oh yes, I have a difficult time responding to emails and phone calls and am a pretty big loser about communication in general, but clearly, I will be able to keep up a blog!" not so, my friends. not so.
however, I am trying! I could tell you something stupid like that my new years resolution is to blog more, but that would be, well, stupid. as well as not true. I feel, in general, that new years resolutions are... well, stupid. haha. I mean, on the 31st I can't manage to run everyday, but on the 1st I'll have the resolve!? no. I think its a lovely concept, and I'll grant that the new year is a good time to decide to make changes, but be realistic! allow yourself some breathing room! I feel that NYR's set you up to fail and feel like crap, which is mostly why I don't like them. but hey. if you really can, in one day, decide to make major life changes, more power to you and tell me to shutface! I only encourage you to be proactive about making changes in your life for sure, if they are needed, but don't be too terribly hard on yourself!

SO. I am back in lovely, snowy Denver after a delightful break with my family and what 3 friends I have left in Wichita, and am glad to be back to my house and in my bed and such. I am always struck by the fact, too, that I pretty much set foot in my Wichita house and immediately revert back to age 15. seriously. I'm messier, snittier, stupider, lazier, and more sensitive. its insane! within a day, I swear, my room is a mess, I haven't gotten off the couch from watching America's Next Top Model for 3 days, and I've taken to saying things like "whatever" and I've rolled my eyes so many times my head hurts. ok, so I'm exaggerating for sure. but there is something about being at home with my siblings and parents that makes me forget that I'm kind of an adult now and stuff. interesting. all that to say - my visit truly was lovely, and I was glad to be able to spend time with the fam adequately, be there for hard things, love people with hugs instead of phone calls, and mock my mom endlessly for not cooking. haha. there's no place like home!
I start my nanny job tomorrow for real! Tuesdays and Thursday morning/afternoons I will be spending my time with the aahhhdorable 5 month old Bodie. I went and spent time with his mom, Karli, today and got to view the babe himself in action - and he is superb! it will be hard not to compare him to my perfect niece Shelbie, who is a little younger than he is, but I think I can handle loving him without taking Shelbs off her pedestal, which I'm certain is unshakable. I got to stay with Timmy and Babes for a couple of days over break, too, which was wonderful and exhausting - Amie, you are potentially superhuman, because, both days I barely managed to even get myself out of my pajamas before the end of the day! however - wonderful and priceless, to be sure. love those kids! and more on my new job as it develops! and perhaps I will sneak a picture of Bodie on here so you all can view my new charge!

ok - so - hanging out, trying to kill time before school starts at the end of jan; visiting San Antonio (SO SO SO EXCITED) in 10 days for MLK weekend - for reuniting with old friends and besties and general merriment in ol' Mexico... and that about covers it.

movies I think everyone should see:
Juno, Atonement, Enchanted. all amazing.

people whose music I think everyone should listen to:
Sara Bareilles, Josh Ritter, John Legend.

love love and merry christmas and happy new year and all that jazz. until next time, see movies and resist the urge to make ridiculous new years resolutions. I'm just saying.